Fairytale Marriage

         I'll preface this blog by saying that I love my husband, a lot.  But my marriage has not always been the fairytale that I dreamed, well really, it's not ever been a fairytale.  Why?  Because my marriage is not a fairytale and it's not make believe.  That's what the basis of fairytales are right? They are make believe. 

         For me, being a mom is not like what the fairytales make it out to be as well.  I don't wake up with perfect hair, make up looking amazing, and bouncing around with an abundance of energy.  If you visit my house (please give a fore warning) there will be toys strung about, food on the floor, and dust everywhere.  There are times that I send my husband a text saying, "If you find me in the corner shaking and crying, let me be."  Why?  Because it's hard!  I'm generally always exhausted and sleep is good when I can get it. 

       However, toys strung around reminds me that we are fortunate enough to buy our daughter things to play with and that she plays with them.  I don't care if my hair is a mess and my make up is not perfect.  I'm more concerned that I was able to brush my teeth.  Food on the floor, well that tells me that God has blessed us with jobs that allow us to purchase food to keep in our stomachs. 

        God has provided.  God has given me a husband that takes care of his family and loves his family.  However, my first love needs to be God.  If I love God and follow His guidance then I'm richly blessed by His hands.  My God is a selfish God and wants to be number one in my life.  However, with a 19 month old, technology, books, television, family stresses, etc....my priority to God is often pushed aside.

         Mom's do you ever feel this way?  Do you ever feel that your "fairytale" is not measuring up to what you had planned from childhood?  Guess what...it shouldn't.  Like I mentioned before, it's make believe. Do you ever feel that you let your relationship with God slip?  Well you are not alone.

          So what can you do?  You can pray constantly to Him and seek Him.  Sometimes I have to pray to God to give me the patience to manage temper tantrums but I am seeking Him.  I seek Him in family conflicts.  I respond to His direction.  I read about Him and His love for me.  I have to remember that no matter what my day holds, my God is bigger.  I have to make a conscious effort to think about Him. 

         Today...I challenge you to let go of the fairytale image of marriage and focus on the realty of marriage and motherhood.  It's tough and consuming.  But when God is in the center, then you will find blessings in the mess.